After over a year of searching and interviewing, someone finally hired me to do a job that required a college degree, paid me what I'm worth, and gave me several days off a year. I'm happy, I like my job a lot, and I'm finally starting to feel like I'm on my way to living a functional adult life. I'm nearly financially ready to move out and take care of myself on my own, so I'm constantly pondering some of the other things I want to do with my newfound economic stability and independence.
What I"m most excited about regarding this new area of my life is being able to live entirely alone. Sure, it sounds lonely, and I'm certain the novelty will wear off pretty quickly, but I love the idea of being able to worry about keeping no one happy but myself and my landlord. There's something very important to me about living alone. I see it as a time when I will learn things about myself I don't yet know, and when I can truly express myself in whatever way I want. If I want to learn guitar, there won't be anyone around judging me (except maybe some neighbors, but I doubt I'll care what they think). If I want to paint until 2 AM, I know there won't be anyone up wondering what I'm doing. I have always felt slightly hindered when I live with others. Certain creative things in my life I like to do completely and utterly alone, and this is very important to me. It's one of those reasons why I can't at all understand why people want to move straight out of home into a dwelling with a significant other. I think it's very important that everyone live by themselves, at least once, in their lives. Why not now?
I'm also considering taking a trip alone. As I've mentioned before, I'm hardly street savvy. I feel like I would become just a little more worldly if I venture out to an unknown place on my own. I can meet new people, go where I please, and do as I want. But most of all, I'd be forced to survive on my own. No one to help me get my plane on time, and no one to help me navigate streets or train schedules but strangers. Of course, it hardly sounds fun to me, to be honest. What good is a vacation if you can't share it with anyone? But it's more something I feel I need to learn more about myself, rather than something I want. So will I use my new vacation time to travel alone? Probably not. If I do take a vacation, I'll probably visit a friend across the country, or go to Seattle with my boyfriend. But it's a nice thought, and it's definitely in that list of things I want to do before I get married. What's the rush? I want to know as much about myself as I can before I need to share it with someone else.
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